I want a girlfriend. LOL. No srsly. Not gay, but... someone to hold hands with, but like, not sex, not that. Just a close friend that is my best friend in the whole entire fucking universe. I wouldn’t even give a shit, if she was beautiful. I wouldn’t mind being in public with her, like being close to her, but not… it’s so weird I don’t know why the fuck I am posting this. I’m totally straight but I’m totally bi-curious… not bi-sexual… I have never had sex with the same sex. But,
I am so lonely and guys are assholes (most of them, not all of them!) And girls just get stomped on and ran over and hated on by various men these days. It makes me sick to talk bout useless dudes because I was once with a useless dick-head. He would yell @ me, scream @ me, say I was wrong bout everything, thought he knew it all, thought he was better than me (in some aspects) would throw shit (trash, lighters, paper, anything he could find in his big mess of cluttered items scattered around his feet) and I would put up with the shit until I went off on him a couple times. He would grab me tightly and try to control my body or something. He was like, infatuated with my intelligence while he was the one who was a fucking idiot. UGH. He was so fucking messy. He would be destructive with just… random fucking objects. (Example: If a string on a jacket wasn’t useful to you anymore, you cut it off and throw it away. [Who would waste time doing shit like that anyway.]) Well he would keep the shit like it meant something. Every time I would throw away the trash that he made, he would tell me to NOT throw it away that it could be used for something. I was always like, “Well are you going to use it for anything then? If not I’m throwing the fuckin’ shit away man, no need for this shit.” And he would scream at me for throwing water bottles away. Maybe he was one of those hoarders that you see on tv that keeps every little fucking paper and pubic hair. Anyways, I am so glad to be single!
And I am SO thankful to be out of that stupid fucking relationship.